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Yea , born with the Great name of Ong Poh Hong . Came Babbling with the proud sign of a Cancer . Loves the feeling of walking in the Night & Hates the attidude of those Scukers .
With the proud Attidude , Scott Seo Chit Seng is my Boy ~~although~~ me ain't sure on how he truly feels .
By the lovable Attitude , Leow Hui Qin is my Cousin .
As the honourable Attidude , Adele ; Rosliana ; Shafi'e ; Syarafa are my Most proudest treaures .

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12/30/2009 /

Yea , this is going to be a self-confessing post .

Had a 2 hours talk with David on the phone just now which he called me using his HANDPHONE . * I wonder how is he going to settle his phone bill *
Talk about lots of stuffs and yea , this post will be about those stuffs we talk about which includes me but EXCLUDE his stuffs . Well David , I kept my promise to you and keep my mouth shut about your stuffs ^^

Well , I have decided to just forget about all of them & yea , that includes Kiat & Kok & David . And I have deleted all of their numbers & their messages . And I mean ALL of anything that relates to them . Yes .. * sads *

Well , I somehow guessed correctly about their attitude towards me . Like I said before , I had that kind of feelings that they don't really treat me as their friend but stranger who talks . Well , David said that was kinda true . * Anyway , both David & I confessed everything as in , we speak all the truth . I somehow did anyway .. * So yea , he told me that they excluding himself , just treated me as a little kid whom they could hang out with but not as friend . Saying in the bad way , I am like a .. toy ? yea .. After confirming the answer , I was not shock & I laughed & joked about it .. Seriously , I get this info in a not-that-bad way situation . Maybe that was because I was like , prepared ?
Well , I dare to say that I treated them as friends . At least whatever they called me to keep my mouth shut on , I did & I really never tell anyone . I know this sounds like a dumbass to them but well , I am proud because I kept my promises ! ^^ back to topic .
yea , we talked & joked about it . Then David told me all of the procedures about them getting my number & I was like laughing so damn freaking loud man !

But I was not angry , seriously . Not angry about them 'playing' with me at all because I get to spend some happy times & waste my time away too . Saying that I am not sad was fake especially when Kiat & Kok & David was like in the 'game' too , but I wasn't like so sad as in so sad , just disappointed .

And OMGGGGG ! Kiat had a stead whose name is called ChunLi ! You know , ChunLi in the Street Fighter ?! OMG !! I love ChunLi ! Seriously ! She was my fav. character in Street Fighter ! OMG !!!

Yea , I was shock but not really sad to know that he have a stead , I mean , guys like him sure have stead .

Hmm .. What is there to talk about somemore .. Oyah ! I wanted to cry , I mean really cry cause I was 'cheated' by them and I treated them like friends but .. I can't cry . T_T And I am pretty sure that was because I already somehow knew the answer ? Heartache ? Yea .. Indeed there is some aching .

Ok , I am sad but I couldn't cry at all ! T_T But like I always say , I am not thick-skin so by missing them will be like thick-skin . Well , I can get over AnSoon & Jonathan before , so why can't I get over them right ? Yea ..

Maybe it will be like what Adele said , it took me about 1 year to forget the both of them but I still managed didn't I ? And yea , I am going to like start working ? No time to be sad & what .

But I am sad . Really sad yet I couldn't feel the sadness like how I do when I quarrel with Ros they all or break with An they all .. OMG ~!! Have I become hypocrite ?! Omg ! ahahas !

But really la , suddenly I have this kind of feelings that maybe David is like .. I don't know ? Like .. I don't know .. Aiyah , means like , I suddenly have this kind of feelings that actually Kiat & Kok they all aren't playing with me but really treating me like a friend or what ? Is just that David wanted to chase me off or maybe there is someone beside David while I talk & he recorded whatever I said ? ahahas .. Anyway , I know that I have this kind of beliefe that whatever David said to me earlier on about them playing with me , as long as either Kiat or Kok tell me that " No , we never play with you ." I will believe them instead .. hahas .

And oyah ! I told David that I listen to Kiat's words you know ! Somehow like telling him I like him or what la , but I told him that I like as in that like not that kind of like .. yea , understand ?

And yea , I deleted the messages that Kiat send to me too , that message that he sent saying that he will contact me .. I deleted it ..
Maybe I might regret it * I am starting to I guess ? or maybe not * maybe he really will contact me again . But yea , everything will be left for fate to settle ..

Even if I want to confirm the playing answer with Kok , I can't do it anymore cause I delete his number too .. hahas . So it is up to fate too whether he will message me or not .

But really , I believe that I will get over them .. Sooner or later , especially Kiat & Kok . Really ..

Labels: I am really missing you all especially both of the Ks'

Miaow-ed @ 9:31:00 AM